Ugggh. This is the worst. I hate admitting my human-ness. I really want to be a role model - a paragon of virtue and spiritual bad-ass-ness, but I ran smack dab into a big fat honkin' fear, and all of that just ran down the drain faster than the babysitter’s boyfriend when the car pulls up.
So, here it is - I took the step to ask for help on a project, then didn't follow through. The further I get from the date it was due, the harder it is to just send it already! This fear is irrational. This fear is ridiculous. This fear has helped me break a promise to myself and to someone else. I. am. so. mad. at myself. (sigh) After deciding to come clean to you about what is really going on with me (my ego is just furious), I know that I'm going to have to finish this letter and then get moving on my commitment. Bleeeech. I still feel scared. I think it's no good. Blah blahblahblah blah. Onward.
So I want to thank you in advance for being my accountability partner. I'll send you a quick email tomorrow when I'm done, and if you want to text me a thumbs-up, I'd love it. Stepping out into some uncharted waters here, challenging the dragons at the gate and using every tool I can to feel the fear and do it any way.
No, I'm not calling you a tool ;) Talk to you tomorrow....